Long time gone

I have been gone a seriously long time from this blog. I felt as though I had no reason to post anything here. Life had hit a plateau and there was just nothing left to say that I already hadn’t said.

I have been through the ringer a few times the months I’ve been absent from here. So many negative things have happened, mostly condensed within the last 3 weeks. Before that, I was just feeling the worst discontent I have ever felt in my life. I won’t get into the gruesome details of all of it. To be honest, I simply don’t really want to talk about it.

The last 3 weeks has included a miscarriage, the loss of my Granddad, and sick kids. Emotions were incredibly high for quite the extended period of time. It was so difficult to get through. Even now as I type this, I still feel the despair of it all.

Things have cooled down now on the emotional front, at least a little bit. In other aspects, things are heating up. Not long ago, the husband came to me and told me he wanted to spank me. For real. I agreed. Afterwards, he brought me onto his lap and we talked. He expressed that he wanted to pursue the D/s relationship that I had asked for a year ago. He wants to seriously pursue it. I was floored. I had given up on any notion that was going to happen. I truly never thought it would. We have been talking a lot lately. He even asked me to send him links to sites that would help him. I’m starting to think that this might actually be real this time.


8 thoughts on “Long time gone

  1. Wow! So good to hear from you! Been thinking of you over the past months!! What an exciting development; I’m so incredibly happy to hear that there is newness among all the awful events. ❤

    • Thank you! It felt like it was so out of the blue, it caught me totally off guard. I did ask him why the sudden interest, and he said that he actually started reading a few things. Opening his eyes more and seeing what it could do for us. i hope you have been well these last months too!

  2. i’ll have to run through and listen to music sometime too, but gosh, i’m so glad you’re seeing the possibility of hope. Keeping my fingers crossed for you!

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