I have been gone a seriously long time from this blog. I felt as though I had no reason to post anything here. Life had hit a plateau and there was just nothing left to say that I already hadn’t said.
I have been through the ringer a few times the months I’ve been absent from here. So many negative things have happened, mostly condensed within the last 3 weeks. Before that, I was just feeling the worst discontent I have ever felt in my life. I won’t get into the gruesome details of all of it. To be honest, I simply don’t really want to talk about it.
The last 3 weeks has included a miscarriage, the loss of my Granddad, and sick kids. Emotions were incredibly high for quite the extended period of time. It was so difficult to get through. Even now as I type this, I still feel the despair of it all.
Things have cooled down now on the emotional front, at least a little bit. In other aspects, things are heating up. Not long ago, the husband came to me and told me he wanted to spank me. For real. I agreed. Afterwards, he brought me onto his lap and we talked. He expressed that he wanted to pursue the D/s relationship that I had asked for a year ago. He wants to seriously pursue it. I was floored. I had given up on any notion that was going to happen. I truly never thought it would. We have been talking a lot lately. He even asked me to send him links to sites that would help him. I’m starting to think that this might actually be real this time.