Hiatus

So I’ve been missing from the blogging world of WordPress for quite some time now. It hasn’t been because I haven’t wanted to write, but I felt like I was lacking in anything new. The mundane of being caught in a rut caused me to feel that I would just start sounding like a broken record if I continued to write about my life. There hasn’t been anything new to report. Even now there is nothing really all that new.

I did have a conversation with the husband last weekend about how I felt as though we didn’t even have a marriage. Because I do feel that way. I don’t feel like we are a married couple. I feel like we are friends with benefits that live together. While we still do have sex occasionally (meaning that it’ll happen a couple times a week, which is suppose it more than a good number of married couples I know, but with my intensely high sex drive it seems like so very little), it has become predictable and boring for me. I find myself to be completely unfulfilled 99% of the time. I’m not entirely sure what to do about this. I take care of things myself, and I get creative with myself in some areas, but that only goes so far. I don’t feel like him and I have the connection anymore. I continue to talk to him about how I feel, but the response is underwhelming. He said that it makes him feel sad that I feel this way, but that is about the only reaction that I got. It is a start. He used the word “sad” which indicates that he does have some modicum of emotions (almost all the time he seems completely devoid of emotions).

I don’t know where things are going to lead me from here. I’ll keep talking (which is an improvement for me, considering I tend to retreat into the recesses of my own mind and keep quiet about such things). I think I will likely just have to let life take me where it takes me. Roll with the punches so to speak.

I may have another hiatus from writing depending on where the flow of things is going to take me. I am still around, just don’t be surprised if you don’t see another written post from me for some time again.

I hope that everyone who read this is doing well and continues to do so!

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10 thoughts on “Hiatus

    • Thank you for the positive words. I hope things start to look up soon too. I do hope that it’s not one of those too little too late kinds of things.

  1. Nsk glad to see you post but sorry to read this lady. All I can say is think about yourself and your future together and if you feel this bad now, how will you feel a year from now.. Life is to short to be sad, unhappy and not feel cherished and loved lady. Good luck with what ever you decide! ♥HUGS LADY♥
    P.S. I can not hit the like button…Sorry!
    Lts♥

    • I have a difficult time thinking about myself sometimes. I’ve been trying to do so more lately. You’re right, life is too short to feel unhappy all the time. I love my kids to the ends of the earth and they bring a light to my life. It makes me feel selfish that this doesn’t seem to be enough to procure complete happiness. We’ll see where this road will take me. Hugs!

  2. Glad to see you pop back up in my reader! Sorry things are tough right now. But give yourself some time to bounce back, things brighten up for you again!

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