Times have been seemingly very busy around here. In hindsight, it hasn’t been that busy. Both of my girls were gone for two days last week so I enjoyed some quiet time for a couple of days. Then with Thanksgiving we did get busy for a few days with that. I decided that I was going to brave the crowds and head out into the Black Friday sales. I got some really good deals, so I’m ultimately glad that I went out. This year instead of buying presents for a each other and opening them when we do our small Christmas with our girls, we thought that I could just buy a couple things we had our eye on that went on sale. Nothing big, but we’re calling it even anyway.
Christmas is my favorite time of year. I’m really excited about this year too because A is in preschool and they are doing a Children’s Christmas Program. I’ve been waiting for her to be old enough to participate in these things. It’s also nice that we have our “game plan” for the holiday season. I think we have finally found our new normal “routine” for Christmas. Which is good because not knowing how to work things out really did hurt me. The reason it sometimes gets complicated is because A has another family that wants to see her during the holidays. Luckily, they do their Christmas on a different day so it works out nicely.
There is nothing new to report on with anything D/s either. I’ve managed to continue to stay out of the “danger zone” of spiraling, but sometimes I will feel a little…blah… I’m going to go ahead and say that’s just because of three things. 1) The weather has been cold so no outside time. 2) I’m not getting nearly as much sleep as I should. I just end up staying up way too late. 3) My sister.
Number 3 is a big one these days. We had some drama with her over Thanksgiving. She got mad so she took off and didn’t come back for our family Thanksgiving. I think part of her decision to do so has to do with the eating disorder that she has been fighting for the last 12 years or so (and she’s only 25 years old). It’s been sad to watch her go through all of this. I’ve fought a lot of the same demons that she does, and sometimes I still fight them. The difference between us is that I win my battles 99% of the time, she loses hers 99% of the time. We don’t know what to do anymore. She was supposed to go to a treatment facility a few months ago, but that still hasn’t happened yet. She has been hospitalized a few times over the last year for extremely low potassium levels, but those weren’t enough of a wake up call. It seems like I’m always worrying about her. I try to think optimistically, but sometimes I can’t stamp down the thought that it won’t be long before we lose her.
On a little bit happier note, I’m happy to report that my little E has started cooing. She’s been smiling for a while (as I posted a picture of her beautiful smile not long ago), but not much cooing. Now she “talks” her little heart out, I think we’re going to have another talker just like her big sister.
Well, that’s pretty much all to update from the land of me. I know it’s an hodge podge mix of a disorganized post, but I just needed to write.
I hope everyone had a wonderful Thanksgiving!