It’s been too long since the last time I wrote anything here, and to be completely honest I haven’t had too much to write about anyway. It hasn’t been overly busy but nothing real big or exciting has happened. Most of Husband’s home time the last 5 days consists of Him doing homework. I’m glad that He went back to school and I fully support Him in it. He is unhappy with His current line of work and going back to school was necessary for the career that He wants. However, there is that part of me that occasionally feels put on the back burner. I don’t feel this way all the time, just sometimes when it’s multiple nights in a row. We still make sure to reconnect every day, even if it is just taking that nightly shower together. I hadn’t really felt myself really start to fall into the downward spiral, though I expected to fall into it by day 2 of the homework marathon, but I have handled the situation better than I might have in the past (maybe some growth on my part?). He’s still doing all those little things that He has been doing and they add up and must be what has helped to keep me out of the spiral. I haven’t been bratty or coping an attitude lately, but I know that I have been “toeing the line.” This morning, in the hectic mess that was the start of my day, I was unable to make breakfast for Him. He said no big deal, but I felt absolutely terrible about it. After that happened today, I can feel myself at the brink of the spiral. I need to be proactive, I need to talk to Him. Tell Him how I’m feeling, what I think I need. Unlike past spirals, I *think* I know what I need in order to avoid falling. So I will take it to Him, tell Him how I feel and then let Him take it from there. It will be His decision as to whether He agrees with my thinking or not, but I am determined not to “hide” myself this time. I don’t want it to get so out of control that I start physically trying to hide myself from Him. I already know that this is not going to be easy, but I also know that I really need to work through the fear. Maybe one day, there won’t be fear and this won’t be so difficult. Maybe.